today I am thankful for Christmas music....

you can judge me if you want...

but today i am whipping out the christmas music...

sufjan will be keeping me company today...

as he sings me into the season....

it's a day for christmas trees and hot chocolate...

now all we need is the snow...

i'm not dismissing Thanksgiving, by any means...

but today my heart needs Christmas...

and this is a week of thankfulness...

what are you thankful for today?

i need a break

this morning it was hard for me to smile.

i'm not sure why...

there's a lot going on in these next few days...

and my heart and mind haven't had a whole lot of time to just sit and catch up.

when i get nearly overwhelmed like this the easiest thing for me to do is to clam up...

and not talk...

which is frustrating to those around me...

especially my boyfriend who got up early to walk to class and had to try to interact with me... being a stone wall.

got to my first class where we were finishing up watching "Hotel Rwanda"...

and although i realize it is just a movie...

these are things that truly happened, and my heart has a very hard time being okay with the images on the screen....

it makes me especially angry because a very dear friend of mine is from Rwanda, her family was refugees during the Civil War in Rwanda... and although she wasn't there for the deepest terror of it all it still hits home for me...

needless to say i didn't even bother going to my second class...

by that point i was in desperate need for some alone time with my Jesus.

so i texted a roommate and i am blessed enough for roommates who let me borrow their cars on whims so i could get away..

i ventured to get some coffee and some quite time....

again, my God is good.

He is my joy and my life....

over and over again he fills me up so that i don't have to worry about getting by on my own, because i would fail every time if it was up to me and my abilities....

so when He says, "come to me, all you who are weary and heavy burdened, and i will give you rest"...matthew 11:28....He means it....

today...i am having trouble with patience.

and i am completely aware of the fact that nothing can bring me out of this except for time with my Savior...

luckily He is not suffering with impatience towards me...

and he doesn't get annoyed with me when i don't do dishes, or don't clean the counters...

i guess i should take a lesson from Him..

thank God that He is patient.

it's monday...and my heart is feeling all sunny...

so this weekend i fell in love...

with the band freelance whales...

and i cannot stop listening to "Generator 1st Floor"...

it's actually giving me chills right now, so so beautiful.

just look at them....so so cute.

don't you just wanna be friends with them...

mmmmmm yeah they sure do make some lovely music.

on the other hand, it's a new week.

and i'm wearing argyle socks and drinking from the mustache mug my tremendous boyfriend got me.

my heart is all giggly, and i hope that yours heart feels smiley today as well....

because there is love in this november air.....

oh my goodness!

i just found out that one of my very best friends during high school is pregnant!

and i could not be more excited.

i'm actually super surprised by how excited i am...

i wish she didn't live in virginia so that i could hug her right now.

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now all i can think about is going on a shopping spree for baby stuff...

oh my goodness....

i cannot wait until april!!!

it's wednesday, LOVE!!!!

today...

• i want to build a fort and stay inside.
• i laughed so much in allegre.... i am falling in love with the people in that class....
• david came over and we made breakfast together...i love wednesday mornings
• i sat in the basement of the library with my dear friend, meredith, and we talked about life....and read "thidwick the big hearted moose" by dr. seuss.
  sometimes i wish i was a child again
• i vaccuumed and did the dishes... and felt like a 50s housewife
• i got my funk on to lady gaga and kid cudi as i did the dishes..

the weeks just keep passing by faster and faster.

and i'm learning to enjoy each day to its fullest....

how did you live out this wonderful wednesday?

well good morning to you too, mr. piper.

well, john piper hit it spot on today...

"The root of all evil is that we are the kind of people who settle for the love of money instead of the love of God.."

i don't know about you...

but the desire for more stuff is something that i struggle with...a lot.

i get frustrated with myself, over and over again.

but i'm learning more and more that my love for stuff is just me cheapening my joy...

turns out the excitement or "joy" that material possessions can give you is pretty fleeting....