there's a place...a place where i picture myself

days like today make me so weary of living in the country.
it's beautiful, at times, don't get me wrong. i just don't think that i feel at home here, anymore anyways. i so badly want to be surrounded by people. where i can see life going on around me, and be reassured once again that there is life outside of this small town. muncie would even be enough for me right now. i'm in that stage of break where i'm so ready to be back at school.

but i know i should be enjoying break. i just wish i could come up with something to do that kept my mind from sleeping that didn't involve me needing a vehicle to get there. ah well. there's always tomorrow, right?
but what about today? today still has potential...am i just ignoring it?

quadratic formula

rainy. rainy with a high near 60.
what a strange day for december.
as i sit here watching "you've got mail" with my beautiful mother and sister i am still finding this weather so strange. especially when i'm still finding myself to be a bit brooding over the Christmas that wasn't white. awww well. it was still a great Christmas.

but back to the movie. i do not think that i could ever truly become sick of "you've got mail". it's just too charming. although i've never been to new york, this movie made me fall in love with it. oh i can only hope to see this city, so beautifully depicted before my eyes, in person some day.

i made pita bread today. i was a bit leary about how they would turn out, but oh my word, they were something else. warm homemade pita with hummus, what a lovely, perfect dish for a strange december day. i've been cooking/baking a lot since i've been home for break and it's been just wonderful. oh ... you don't even know how happy it makes me.
speaking of my love for cooking, i got some of the greatest gifts for christmas. i guess they weren't really christmas gifts, one of my great uncles had gone to an auction and someone basically gave him a box of stuff that he didn't really need, and in turn he gave this box of stuff to my mother. he had found out that i am living in a house next year at school and that i would be needing various, you know, home stuff. and you will never believe the treasures that were in this mystery box. the usual quirky bowls and plates, and then the goldmine! a vintage grass green double boiler and an owl napkin holder. i wish you could see them, they're better than anything i could've ever purchased in any home interiors store.

on that note, i must go and continue to watch this delightful movie. i hope your christmas was everything you wanted it to be and more. LOVE.

i think that i wish i was a more interesting person.
i wish that i was more of a conversationalist, and that the things i do let myself say wouldn't make me seem so dull.
i've found that when i'm around the people that i want to get to know the very most, the people that i'm most intrigued by i shut myself up for fear that i'm not interesting enough for them.
i wish i could tell some people how intrigued i am by them.
how badly i want to just sit and share a day with them. get to know them.
why are some things so easy to say, but so very hard to do?

i am thinking it's a sign that the freckles in our eyes are mirror images...

it's wednesday.
i'm not real sure how significant that statement is. it just merely means that there are only about 9 days left until christmas break. my heart skips a beat just thinking about it. i, just like most other students, have crossed into a distracted frame of mind, beginning to care very little about finals as my mind is in a scramble. A scramble to finish Christmas gifts for my friends and tie up some loose ends.
other than having to work the next couple days this week has and will continue to be lovely. monday night i hung out with some of my closest friends, and it's been a long time since i've felt that "at home" in muncie. smoking hookah, watching ice age and laughing with them started my week off right. i am so thankful for their hearts and smiles and the way they all make my heart feel.
tuesday, as usual, was lovely. this semester i was fortunate enough to not have class until 2pm on tuesdays and thursdays. ahh yes, and next semester will be full of the same. this means at least once a week i am guaranteed a day where i'm able to watch martha stewart. yes, i know, she may be a heartless, unfeeling, emotionless human being but she talks about baking and being crafty, two of my very favorite things. well this tuesday rufus wainwright was a guest on the show, along with his mother and they were making cookies, a wainwright family recipe. all i have to say is he has one of the most contagious giggles. either way, it was great.

i must go for now, but i promise if you watch this http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z_RfCEPqbK4 you will not regret it.
LOVE

we're just...

my roommate and i are just a bunch of bums. tuesdays are relatively lazy days for me, when i don't have to work in the morning. not having class until 2pm usually leaves me with a nice chunk of time to do whatever needs done. this can be anything from watching martha stewart, to running, to i don't know...maybe homework every once in a while. when it absolutely must be done. today it was a mixture of all of the above. i had a paper that was due at 5:30 this evening, and honestly it was only by the grace of God that it was completed in time. i'm not quite sure how he does it but he always works things out, incredible.
back to our bum status...i get back to the room at around 8ish after running for roughly 45 minutes...and i get right down to completing this paper. the roommate gets up at like 9:45ish so i can finally listen to music..today it was a collection of iron & wine. it just calms me, i think it's samuel beam's beard...it does a number with me. mmmm...just thinking about it.
either way...in the closing scene of twilight, possibly the only redeeming quality of the movie except for the laughter it filled my body with, iron & wine's "flightless bird, american mouth" plays. it's quite lovely really. and i can't stop listening to it.
my roommate took a "real simple" magazine from her mom for me this weekend. so exciting, because 1.) i didn't have to pay for it and 2.) who doesn't get excited about real simple?

p.s. i'm listening to "flightless bird, american mouth" right now, i know ... call me ridiculous, i just love it.