i hope this reaches you...someday.

dearest friend,
as i sit here nibbling at some cereal i realized there are some things i should tell you.
you have been so much more than i deserve. the grace you extend to me daily has not gone unnoticed, i promise you that, even when i seem distant and clueless. i know that i don't tell you enough how much you mean to me. your friendship is so encouraging to me. your smile makes me know that there's no reason to get so down.
giggling with you is by far my favorite thing. wasting time by your side even makes me feel like i've accomplished something. i wish all relationships came this naturally.
i'm sorry for all the temper tantrums, complaints, and confusing glances.
i am imperfect, but you know that and seem to be more than okay with it.
i have learned so much from you. thank you for teaching me things, even though you may be unaware that you are doing just that.
i think i'm growing up. and i hope part of this is that i become less selfish.
then maybe i'll be able to tell you these things to your face, instead of vaguely addresing you, worrying about what it may do to my pride.
but your's is the kindest smile, and despite what the knot in my stomach tells me, you would not reject my words.
even now i can't wait for the next time that i can lazily sit with you and shoot the breeze.
let's drink tea and make breakfast together every day for the rest of our lives?
mkay?

with more love than i can manipulate words to tell,
~katie