times they gotta change...but so do we.

there are things on my mind right now that are successfully preventing me from being able to concentrate on a paper that needs to be completed. my heart has felt heavy for the past few weeks and it's beginning to drain me. the heaviness, though, is not so much a gloomy sort of heavy, it's more weighed down by the possiblities of the coming year and things that God is planning to stretch in me. it's scary to think of sometimes but thoughts of what could be often bring a smile to my face.
i've recently found myself becoming somewhat antisocial and i'm not quite sure what that's all about. i love people and hearing their stories and making new friends but i find myself being content with being alone. i don't think that it's so much a desire to have alone time, i think it's more me thinking that i should spare people the trouble of getting to know me because i'm not truly that interesting anyways. Either way...


i'm sitting upon my bed which is conveniently positioned in such a way that is prime for people watching, usually i find this to be quite enjoyable...people are funny sometimes, but i just watched someone litter and it made my heart ache a bit. there is a trash can a mere 4 yards away...oh well.

today marks a month until my 20th birthday, mildly exciting, right?