i walked in the rain today.
and although it was chilly, i found myself comforted.
it reminded me of camp this summer.
and surprisingly enough i was longing for it.
funny how you can want to go back to something that while you were there you just wanted to be home.
i've found myself in lots of situations like that recently.
my heart is just feeling antsy.
i talked to a friend about it yesterday, our hearts are both feeling similar things.
i feel comfortable where i'm at...very comfortable.
and sometimes that scares me.
i want to be in a place where i'm pushed to do, think and feel things that take me outside of my box, my comfort zone and make me grow.
i'm not feeling that right now. it makes my heart sad.i don't want to stay the person i am right now. am i where i'm supposed to be?
at church on sunday neil talked about having courage...funny how his past few messages seem like they're speaking right to me.
i'm sick of God shouting at me. i know there are things i need to say, things i should tell people, the unknown just leaves me frightened. but that's where sunday's message hit me....i need to use some of this courage God has for me to use...
gah...