i need a break

this morning it was hard for me to smile.

i'm not sure why...

there's a lot going on in these next few days...

and my heart and mind haven't had a whole lot of time to just sit and catch up.

when i get nearly overwhelmed like this the easiest thing for me to do is to clam up...

and not talk...

which is frustrating to those around me...

especially my boyfriend who got up early to walk to class and had to try to interact with me... being a stone wall.

got to my first class where we were finishing up watching "Hotel Rwanda"...

and although i realize it is just a movie...

these are things that truly happened, and my heart has a very hard time being okay with the images on the screen....

it makes me especially angry because a very dear friend of mine is from Rwanda, her family was refugees during the Civil War in Rwanda... and although she wasn't there for the deepest terror of it all it still hits home for me...

needless to say i didn't even bother going to my second class...

by that point i was in desperate need for some alone time with my Jesus.

so i texted a roommate and i am blessed enough for roommates who let me borrow their cars on whims so i could get away..

i ventured to get some coffee and some quite time....

again, my God is good.

He is my joy and my life....

over and over again he fills me up so that i don't have to worry about getting by on my own, because i would fail every time if it was up to me and my abilities....

so when He says, "come to me, all you who are weary and heavy burdened, and i will give you rest"...matthew 11:28....He means it....