i read something the other day that is sticking in my head like a piece of gum to the bottom of a high-school desk.

i'm reading "desiring God" by john piper and so far it has been outstanding.

here is what i read...

" if the pump of love runs dry it is because the pipe of prayer isn't deep enough..."

this may seem a small statement to some, or obvious to others, but to me it was revolutionary.

since reading this a couple days i have found this sentence floating through my head while interacting with others. and in those moments where i find myself getting absolutely annoyed with someone and when i want to shut down any kind of love i could be extending them i find myself analyzing the situation.
i'm realizing that when i find it hard to love someone it's because i haven't been connecting to God, and because God is love I need him to be able to truly love anyone.

i am so thankful for the things that God is teaching me...so so thankful

i'm back.

it's hard to describe how my heart feels sometimes...

there are days when i feel such joy that all i can do is smile and walk with a skip in my step...

there are other days when my heart is so heavy that i don't know how to function...

today i am feeling joy like i haven't known in a while.

to understand i would have to take you step by step through the past few months of my life.

i'll sum it all up by saying i have been stressed this semester like i've never been before.

if you know me you know that school work is never a top priority for me.

school has been easy for me for a long time, and i've never really had to buckle down.

this semester though there has been one class (and a combination of other things going on in my life) that have sucked the joy right from me...

not to say that this semester has been completely void of joy, but i haven't been myself for a while. this week though i finished a huge assignment for a class, and a huge weight has been lifted from my shoulders.

i am visibly different.

i praise God because He is the only reason that i was sustained through this stress...

this is all very vague, and it sounds petty.

all this stress wasn't solely on account of a class....

but i'm back.

and it feels good.

God is reminding me why I've been dancing and light-footed for so long.

He is renewing me, and today, this week He has saved me, like he so often has before.

my salvation is new each day.

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i can't stop thinking about....

i think i've told you all before how easily i fall in love...

with anything...

this past week has been filled with moments like that...

so here are ten things that i can't get off my mind...

1. my friend emily....

she is beautiful and if you met here you would fall in love as well.

this week we got to sit together, drink coffee, laugh and dream of coloring our hair teal...

eventually i would love my hair to resemble a peacock

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2. my friend beth...

i have had very few chances to get to hang out with her this semester..

but thursday night i got to rest my head on her shoulder and it was perfect.

3. this umbrella skirt...

i stumbled across it on this blog and i have a crush...

4. my darling boyfriend...

he made me baked spaghetti for my birthday (even the marinara sauce)

and bought me chocolate milk...

and earlier this week we ate ice cream while sitting in a fort he built...

it was perfect and i'm in love.

5. the fact that i have felt so loved by God this week.

the next few days are gonna be real stressful for me and he keeps reminding my heart that he's not gonna give me anything i can't handle

6. how much fun i had at work yesterday.

i had to work the football game ... not my thing...

but the people i got to work with made me laugh so much...

7. riding bikes to vecinos with david yesterday.

it was beautiful outside....and i beat him...twice...

bam!

8. i get to see my family today!!!

9. my friend ariane has been staying in our house this week...she just recently got back from africa and i have missed her so very much

10. i've journaled so much this week!

and i love going back and looking through what i've journaled over the past year...

hey...happy sunday. i love you.!